My Christmas Wish (Poem)

I wish for all of my family and friends

     The very best of years

I hope your holiday is filled with joy and laughter

     To last throughout the years

And as this Christmas comes and goes

     With the wonderful memories made

I wish for you to look back on the times we've shared in the past

     The laughter and the tears

That you'll be filled with the hope and joy

     Of us being together in the coming year

I know we have all had moments

     We'd hope would always last

But my wish for you is that these next years

     Will be better than the last

And with that said I want to wish you

     A happy holiday

To let you know you're in my thoughts

     And you're what gets me through the day

I love you all

     Merry Christmas

 

© Copyright E.F. Rose 12.01.05

Lies (Poem)

Lies

Oh sweet crazy lies
That's all that I can hear
For though I'm sure the truth can be reached
It's nothing I can bear

Every word that passed your lips
Were dripping in lies of oil
Which slowly covered all the truths
And quietly stole my soul

My soul which I gave up so freely
Opening myself to you
Yet you concealed yourself so well
Obscuring everything you'd do

I never knew who you really were
I never saw passed your mask
The wall that you securely held
Showing nothing of your past

So now that you have left my sight
I'm trying to sift through the mess
I'm trying to mend my shattered heart
Put my world back to the way it was in the past

For though your lies were terrible
Wrapping me in a fog
The only lie that I told myself
Was the very worst of all

Lies


© Copyright E.F. Rose 03.18.04

My Wish (Poem)

Of all the things I love the most

I love the deep blue sea

For of all the things that I love

The sea is the biggest mystery to me

And for what I wish

To all my friends

Whose loves are pure and true

May all your mysteries

Big and small

Be just as special to you

© Copyright E.F. Rose 10.15.99

As You Go (Poem)

I call to you
Can you hear me?
I call through the mist and plead

I beg for you to come to me
But you don't care
It's clear to see

You look at me
With emotionless eyes
Then look away
And wave good-bye

My love for you
Is oh so deep
As I watch you leave
I fall to my knees

You turn around
And say "can't you see -
You deserve so much better than me"

And with that said
You walk away
For there's nothing left
For you to say


© Copyright E.F. Rose 12.13.99

Christmas Rush!!!

          It's so hard to believe that it's almost Christmas, every year just seems to go by faster and faster.  It feels like just yesterday I was at working trying to get everything ready for our spring show and wondering when I was going to take my first vacation.  Now suddenly I find myself knee deep in retail chaos.  There's just nothing like working in retail around this time of year and for anyone that has never had the pleasure, all I can say is... "Good for you!!" lol..  Just Kidding.  But it can be a really stressful time of year. 

         Since I work in a mall, our holiday season gets going as soon as you put your left over turkey in the fridge.  The stores seems to start opening earlier and earlier each year and from a business standpoint I get it.  However, I don't necessarily agree with it.  I think Thanksgiving should be a day to give thanks and spend with the family.  Not rush through dinner so that you can get out there and be first in line for a new tv.  But this seems to be what's happening and like anything else one has to change with the times.  Luckily for me, my store didn't need to open until 8 am on Black Friday so I was able to sleep in, at least as far as a lot of others were concerned.

         Now, after the hussle and bussle of Black Friday, it's time for the waiting game.  My store is known to do well for itself around Christmas but our true crunch time comes only a week to a week and a half before Christmas Eve. So as I mentioned, it's time to hurry up and wait.  I can already sense the mall beginning to get busy though, especially on the weekends, so I know our rush is coming.  I do love this time of year and working in a mall makes it a little more exciting.  Watching all of the family's rush around, laughing and enjoying each others company is always something I enjoy.  It's also fun to watch the excitement in someones eyes when they pick out "The" gift for their loved one... You know, that one that will just make their day!

           So though I do deal with a lot of grumpy, unfriendly and even outright rude people around this time of year I still love the season.  There's just something about this time of year that makes me smile and believe that anything is possible.  It's the magic of the holidays that truly inspires me.  Working in retail it is definitely not an easy time but then nothing ever is.  I just remember that after all of the madness and craziness this time of year brings, it'll always lead up to a lovely calm.  And it's in those moment of calm when I find my holiday spirit!!   My Christmas joy!!

For All My Years (Poem)

With mournful eyes and falling tears
I think back on those last years
When we used to sit and talk about our promising future
And how we'd both remain as one, forever
Forever - Ha, oh how that word brings a bitter smile
For it's been two long years now since I've seen you around
"We are in love," you'd often say, as we lay in bed
Then smile and slowly turn away, laying down your head
And in the last days we were together I'd lay and watch you sleep
Silently wondering to myself is it "We" that feel beats of love - or simply "I"
For even then I couldn't tell the truth from all the lies
And oh the lies that you would weave
About were you've been and who you've seen
Even after all this time has passed, my mind still rings with burning questions
Such as "when did it happen?" and "Shouldn't I have seen?"
Alas, those questions will remain unanswered
For one day I woke up and you had gone
There was and is nothing left to say
For as I cry by night and think of you
By day I hide my thoughts
I know that I'll get over you and find somebody new
But until that day I will remain - Thinking about you


© Copyright E.F. Rose 2003

Waiting on a Sale (short)

           I wrote this short a while back while I was waiting for the days business to pick up :-D  

Anne could hear the calm murmurs of the mall begin to pick up.  The feel of working in a ghost town began to slowly fade away as more and more people began to arrive.  Church must have let out, she thought to herself as she watched outside the store windows.  It had been a long morning, filled with a considerable amount of conversation but very little work.  Sure there had been the occasional watch that needed a new battery or a ring that needed to be cleaned, but no one looking to buy.  But as the hum in the mall began to get louder Anne’s anticipation grew.  Her coworkers could also feel the change in the mall and began to pace back and forth behind the cases.  The salesmen’s eyes were gleaming brightly with the prospect of making their first sale of the day.  With their gaze never leaving the front of the store they took on the look, in Anne’s eyes, of a wolf tracking its prey.  Any minute someone was bound to walk through the doors, any minute and the salesmen would all have to attempt to contain their excitement.  Anne smiled as she remembered their many conversations about jumping over the counters to get to a customer first and the laughs they had shared when one of her coworkers had attempted to do just that.  Of course it had been a friend walking into the store and not a customer, bit it had been funny all the same.

Please (Poem)

Unsure of where to start

Unsure of what to say

Unsure of whether to let down my walls

Or curl up and hide away

Please…

I've never had these feelings

This uncontrollable pull

I feel you coming towards my room

Hand running slowly along the wall

My mind gives off a silent scream

And I don't know what to do

Please…

I see the door knob start to turn

I unconsciously crawl out of my bed

The door slowly opens up

My pulse echoing through my head

Please…

Before I see you standing there

I feel your eyes upon me

Your power curling through the room

As it slowly starts to surround me

Please…

I shyly look into your eyes

Getting lost within the blue

I fall into that chilling sea

Losing myself to you

Please…

And as my mind begins to cloud

My walls crashing all around

I give to you my heart, my life, my soul, my love

Without uttering a sound

Please…

You grin at me

Showing off your fangs

Which should chill me to my soul

Yet the only thought running through my mind

Is how I'm longing to be yours

Please…

So as the lights begin to dim

And you silently walk my way

The last tingle of my fears

Completely melt away

Please…

I ask you to take me with you

To call me as your own

To let me stand beside you

Going where ever you may go

Please…

You look into my eyes

Running your fingers through my hair

And with the slightest tug from you

I offer my neck to your greedy stare

Please…

I close my eyes

As you lick your lips

Relaxing my body into you

And with a shiver, a gasp, and a last inhale

I softly whisper

Please.....

© Copyright E.F. Rose 06.24.07  

Pain (Poem)

This pain which runs deep within my soul
Reminds me of an emptiness I used to know
I promised I would keep myself safe
Never let anyone get too close

But it only took a moment
It only took a glance
It only took my inner self
Believing I had a chance

I let my wall fall to the ground
Opening myself up wide
I dared to take a chance
And let you into my life

But our time was cut too short
You said you couldn't stay
I felt you slipping from my grasp
My heart sinking were I lay

And though I still know that you're around
There when I need a friend
It will never be the same for me
Like it was back then

I'll always long for your smile
To lay there in your arms
I'll always hope that you'll return
Reclaim me as your own

Until that time
I'll keep my heart closed
Keeping my feelings to myself
Attempting to heal my damaged soul
From the numbness that you left

© Copyright E.F. Rose 06.28.06